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Depression

Everyday I get closer to death, everyday I want to die, no one respects me as a hero, yet I save their lives. In real life I seem immature and like an asshole, but that is just not to show the angered and depressed me. I can feel it in my bones, the anger, the hate, I want for this to desperately end but it will not happen because I cannot let it. I must hold on for the sake of others, people need me so I have to be there for them. If you wonder why I torture myself it’s because I want to give you hope and faith, so all I can tell you is never give up.

rocky balboa

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I’d hold you up to say to your mother, “this kid’s gonna be the best kid in the world. This kid’s gonna be somebody better than anybody I ever knew.” And you grew up good and wonderful. It was great just watching you, every day was like a privilige. Then the time come for you to be your own man and take on the world, and you did. But somewhere along the line, you changed. You stopped being you. You let people stick a finger in your face and tell you you’re no good. And when things got hard, you started looking for something to blame, like a big shadow. Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth then go out and get what you’re worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain’t you!

What’s so crazy about standing toe to toe with someone saying “I am”?

I was 12, young and foolish, three years have past and I have become what I wanted to be, I am finding out who I truly am.

To the woman I love.

It truly pains me to just stand and watch as you lose faith, as you crumble, but I will be here when your structure becomes shackles, I will dip my hands in filth so you don’t have to, I will be your Dark knight

Justice

I bleed, I sweat, I break, and I die for justice. Yet injustice is always there and we will never be able to do anything about it. We can fight sure but we can never truly stop it. If you become a hero that’s great but know you will find truth, truth you wish you did not find.

Pain and anger.

I want to kill myself. I’m so angry full of pain. I want to give up, I’m angry in my bones. A person can ruin a persons life so easily. Only people in grief know what it’s like, others understand but they don’t know, then they want you to get over it but you can’t and that’s how life works. But by this day I swear the world will have a real hero soon. A superhero.

The girl

The first girl I got into a relationship with ends terribly thanks to my stupidity. I wish I had a time machine.

Failure

Failing is one of the worst feelings in the world, no matter what you fail in. Life as a superhero is harder than it looks.

Love

Being in love is one of the most complicated things ever know to man. It’s seems so simple but then it’s so difficult at the same time.